Kepiluan Yang Tak Terhingga June 6, 2011
Okay, I’m actually darn darn darn darn darn x 10000 pissed off since April 2011, but because it’s not nice to write it out in public, I just swallow up all my frustrations, my hatred, my bitterness and my anger and shove it down somewhere inside me. You know who I feel like? I feel like Shaw in X-Men : First Class… you throw some shitass nuclear thing at him and instead of him blowing up, he grabs hold of it and absorbs all that shit into himself. I feel like I’m absorbing all these mofo nuclear stuff right now. Unlike Shaw, I don’t know how and when it’ll explode. It probably kind of did today already, when after what I felt was uncalled for happened… but that was seriously 1% of what I’m feeling. And I hate how whenever I am attacked like this, I immediately dissolve into tears. I feel like such a bad fit right now. I don’t know what’s going to happen, but I just pray and pray for the strength to go on.
By the way, I still don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I have a lot of stuff to blog about … like happy stuff. But when I blog about happy stuff when I’m actually in a horrible mood, it’s all going to come out wrong. Maybe I should go for a longgggggg holiday. And never come back!
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