(I actually wrote this on Monday night, starting with Bad Day and ended with Bad Week… hah. Kept adding on stuff, but realised I was being negative, so wrote some happy-ish things at the end. I suppose…)
I’m feeling really pathetic and emo at the moment, and I suppose it could be due to 3 things. Mainly :
- There was a horrific jam on the LDP today, and once again, it was due to a hopeless lorry breaking down, causing people to slow down to look. It’s pointless and irritating to rant about Malaysian traffic and Malaysian drivers because the horse has been flogged so many times, it’s just minced horse meat on the ground. I know that I should not let such things get to me because it’s “part of life” already. However, I can’t help it. It’s barely the 2nd week of the year and there’s been so many road accidents, causing me to be late for work, and today — late to go for my favorite back-to-back gym classes. Of course, I also can’t help but feel that *perhaps* I would have been on time if I were to leave work early? Well, what’s the possibility of that happening, seriously?
Today, itself, there’s been more things coming into my intray than my out tray. Work seriously never ends. I really cannot take it anymore, all these shit, and then hearing stories about how some people in the office get counter offers because they throw letters when their colleague leaves. Seriously, why does management reward people in such a way? I read somewhere that effective management actually says that when your employee throws letter, just let them leave. Maybe you think, I should throw letter as well. Of course, I would only consider that if I *really* had another job opportunity. It’s not that I’m afraid that if I throw the letter, then I’ll be without a job for months. Worse come to worse, I don’t mind slumming (wtf) but it’s not in me to do things like that.
It’s not that I don’t like my job… I do enjoy it to a certain extent, but I feel like people don’t understand what I’m going through and compensation is definitely not enough. My boss says — do not let wealth dictate your happiness, but if I *do* let wealth dictate my happiness, doesn’t that make me an easier employee to please? At least I won’t like, take a 6 month break to backpack through Nepal to find myself or something like that. All you gotta do is gimme gimme more money and that’s all! You could even say you would pay me more and have LESS LEAVE and I would GLADLY accept a deal like that. That’s how money minded I am, seriously. Wouldn’t you like such a predictable employee? You could give me all the SHITTIEST jobs that you hate to do (e.g: documentation, disaster recovery, late night jobs, etc) and all you have to do is make sure you PAY ME MORE. And everyone will be happy, I tell you. Right now it’s more like you TRY to make me do all the SHITTIEST jobs, you don’t pay me more and then you tell me to shut up when I complain.
There’s this guy who my colleagues do not like to work with… but for some reason he likes talking to me wtf. He used to think that Sifoo and Raymond are the only ones supporting [censored] application. As luck would have it, one day both of them are not around and I picked up the call when this guy called. After that, he ALWAYS would look for me only. Today, he said, “Haha, I like talking to you… you get me very fast!” Honestly, I don’t know why he likes talking to me because nowadays when I pick up the phone, I sound like someone who has just gotten shot in the stomach and am holding on to dear life. The users at Laos thinks that I have become “gentler” (HAHA!), but in reality its more like fear and dread in my voice. When my “gentle” side comes on, hah! I can charm your pants off. To which Ben (ever the obscene) would inform me :
Me : Gosh, I’m so charming. I totally charmed his pants off.
Ben : Then you’ll have to give him a blowjob.
Me : WTF. Whatever for!
Ben : What’s the point of charming his pants off and then doing nothing? Now the guy is just pantless and waiting around. So get to it, ho.
[Some light comedy to end the first part of the rant. -___-]
- I have somehow wounded my left arm’s rotator cuff. It was mainly due to bad form doing the chest press… I’ve had it for a really long time. To stop aggravating it, I lowered weights and thought I was doing better, but something else must be triggering it because yesterday, despite correct form (I hope…) and much lower weights (like 7.5kg less), it became so bad that I couldn’t sleep properly last night. Gosh! This is really terrible. I suppose in a way the traffic jam could be a blessing in disguise because I *ought* to take a break from the gym, and doing classes like Attack / Combat will mean upper body conditioning which will mean more aggravation. Gosh gosh gosh.
The bad part is …. I’m team teaching again!! On Thursday! And I hope I’m fully recovered by then and I hope and pray and practice (lol) that I will do a better job this time around. This track, I’m quite gung ho about … it’s called Put a Donk On It, lol. What’s a donk? The most popular description is that it’s a short form for badonkadonk (butt), but in this case, it’s to describe a beat that MCs use to make their music sound more “bassy” (description from UrbanDictionary). Ey lad, put a bangin’ donk on it like that lid from the Blackout Crew.
I cannot even begin to imagine how suckpot I’m going to be at the upper body conditioning track if I have a wonky rotator cuff. Then again, NO EXCUSES. Pain is not an excuse. No time is not an excuse. And my new one — I don’t know is not an excuse! I think that I pissed off my BA HT the other day… never again. *solemn promise*
- General, all-round, “things have not been going my way”. I left my wallet at the office, along with my choreography notes. Heck, I don’t need *all* of them, I just need BA67! Thank goodness I still have the video with me, so it can tide me over tonight. My bed frame keeps collapsing — I believe after the renovation they bunged my bed around a bit too much and it’s never been the same ever since. Imagine having to constantly crawl under your bed to fix the bed frame. Mmm, that’s my life for you.
I don’t want to be such a whiner, I really don’t. But I’m starting to become one of those people who go around wondering if *this* is all there really is to life.
Someone I know’s thoughts on the church burnings : “Haiyah, what for attack so many churches? One also didn’t manage to burn down properly. What kinda terrorist act is this. Don’t even know how to attack properly.”
My thoughts on a recent “Tell It to Thelma” problem :
“Listen mom. This lady says – A is a 42 year old man who is every woman’s dream – he’s understanding, sensitive, kind, a good listener, stable income, etc etc. However, he is dating C, a younger girl who is pretty but who is always demanding he pays for her meals and luxury items. A says that he doesn’t take advantage of C sexually (the writer believes him because he never did the same to her when they dated 21 years ago), but C doesn’t even allow him to hold her hands or to kiss her.”
My mom : “So? Your point?”
Me : “First of all, that lady better speak for herself. She’s definitely not speaking on my behalf when she mentioned that this A is so-called EVERY woman’s dream. “
My mom : . . .
Me : “Secondly, why do you think this ‘every woman’s dream’ won’t even be kissed or have his hands held by this girl called C? Why do you think so mom, with all those good qualities he exudes?”
My mom : “Why?”
Me : “Cos he’s damn ugly lah! Must be wan!”
My mom : “AHAHAHAHAHHA!”
Me : “You know la, once his face comes looming towards her, sure she want to ou huet (vomit blood) already. Otherwise, what’s the big deal? 
I bet the only time he got kissed was when he bought the luxury items for her lah.”
My mom : *between gasps of laughter* “Then if he so ugly, why this other woman who wrote in want him so badly?”
Me : “She is old too… and must be not that good looking either.”
*Two of us start laughing like hell cos you so know that’s true *
On Sunday, I spent 3 hours ironing my clothes, and at the end, I still had 17 pieces of clothing left to iron. You can just imagine the huge pile before that. -___- And while I was ironing, I randomly thought, “I wonder what my future husband is doing at this moment.” As I whacked the iron against my shirts I though, “No wonder I’m not meeting him… cos I’m stuck at home ironing.” -__- And maybe you think it’s such an embarrassing thing to admit thinking about in your past time, but when I told this to Raymond, he said, “Eh, you also do that ah! I did that back when I was in high school.” Hahaha, why so emo wan? But mine is not more of emo, it’s more of a realization that I spend too much time at home. Heh.~
Now — it is Tuesday. I had eBanking project (errors that I have to check out and follow up with relevant parties, work with automailing, Unix and Windows for set-up of project), a project that Khamphai wants to implement TOMORROW and he tells me TODAY (related to national bank requirements), an ‘urgent’ project for Cambodia that has some errors that I’m gonna need time to dig through (but typically – no time to), production issues for offshore subsidiary, GL accounts set-up for Cambodia (a new SMR coming up soon, because these sneaky people saying it’s just a new accounting structure for a set up that is not even in place) and I have to aid the business procedures & processing again. Gosh, each time this “CEO” calls, it is 20 minutes of my life gone! And he called me FOUR times today. The very same one that I mentioned right up in the first paragraph.
Raymond : “I realise that ever since CEO got to know LeeCheng, he doesn’t call us (looking at Sifoo Wong) anymore.”
Sifoo Wong : “Yup, I realised that too!”
Me : “This is not fair!! I’m going to transfer CEO back to the two of you!”
Raymond : “But why? He likes you.. you’ll just make him unhappy. You transfer him to ask, he’ll just transfer himself back to you.”
Sifoo Wong : “This is why I like LeeCheng on our team.”
Blehk.
And guess what? Jam again today, for like 30-45 minutes. Sigh.. I donno whether to feel sorry for myself that I leave work late and get caught in such bad situations, or that I should feel sorry for these people who seemingly get into accident after accident and it’s still a brand new year. It must suck to get into a huge accident right in the beginning of the year, it really turns your whole mood sour. But I really cannot take it anymore at work. There’s just too many things going on.. the phones keep ringing, compensation sucks, it’s like, I’m working myself into a heart attack by 30. I am just not the type of person who can take this kinda thing. If you wanna work me like a dog, don’t pay me like one. If you feed me scraps, ensure you only push small scraps of work o me so that I can use my time in a way that generates more “income” to me whether it’s feeding my soul or literally, feeding me.
Wednesday – jam again. WTF.
Okay, now to write something more upbeat, cos I don’t like whining so much all the time. Things picked up towards the end of the week.. or maybe, it’s more like I surrendered myself to fate and didn’t get so stressed anymore. As I told Wong – I’m not yet even 30, I don’t want to get high blood pressure.
There’s not much superrrrrr happy things that happened to me, but here are 3!
a. I am happy because something that I set out to do earlier this year (new year resolutions, haha), I actually went ahead, got the resources and learned… I wanted to know more about cars! Car engines actually, because I am soooooo blur about everything and generally leave “the man of the house” to settle all car problems. Since I am preparing myself for a life of eternal solitude, I told myself that I cannot depend on anyone else for anything anymore. It’s so shameful if I finally move out, and then crawl back home and ask my dad to help me with car problems.
Anyway, so I got myself some resources, and read more on how the car engine works and all that. Hahaha. Actually, it’s very basic stuff, and I vaguely remember learning some of the things in either Living Skills or physics last time, lol. And besides, there are somethings that you always hear about, but never bothered to find out. Like, why is a V8 engine called a V8 engine? How exactly do more cylinders help your car perform better? What are overhead cams? Previously I thought it was something that people installed in shopping malls to prevent shoplifting. What is torque? What are common problems that occur when an engine stalls, and how to sabotage someone you hate’s car EASILY. Gosh, I’m so happy with my new found knowledge.
I would randomly tell Raymond, “Okay, so now I know what is this radiator thing for.”
Raymond : *faints* “Good for you.”
Me : “Actually, I realise the car engine is quite important in the car.”
Raymond : *faints* “How did you think it was moving before this?”
Me : “No, no, I mean it’s like.. who cares about the interior of the car and the body, shape etc. All those are just additional frills. What you should really look for is the engine’s capability & performance!”
Raymond : “Wah, not bad! Hahahahahaa!”
Me : “I’m gonna blog about this!”
He would also randomly quiz me on stuff that I said I have learned, and he would not believe and quiz me, and when I can answer, he would be all proud and chuffed and say, “Good good, now you can tell all this to your local mechanic and give them instant hard ons.” WTF.
Anyway, I’m still happy. 
b. So I did my team teach again on Thursday, and it was ok I think… in the sense that I didn’t screw up the choreography. Hahahahaha!! Last time, the senior instructor told me that I didn’t pre-cue enough, so this time I really really pre-cue. The track has 3 blocks, so for the first block, I got allll my set-up and safety cues out of the way, and then pre-cued the rest of the time, with small encouragements here and there. Here and there, got SOME reminders, but mostly pre-cue. So of course, at the end of the class, senior instructor now told me I pre-cue too much. Hahaha! Okay, but in my defense right, that track had really confusing choreo, so I think members would appreciate if more directional cues were given than set-up cues, cos most of them are regulars anyway.
Oh, and not enough fitness magic (connection + “funness” of the track)… but I’m ok with this comment. Still new… gimme chance to get the ‘fitness magic’. *thank for the support support support!!*
The best part is… next week I will be team teach with the BA HT… and he allow me to “graduate” to teaching two tracks instead of just one. Hahahaha!! And the two tracks are not running & agility (what most people do when starting) but straightaway to the two final hardcore hardcore tracks — intervals & then POWER. Fuwahhhh!!! Actually, I still haven’t decided which two tracks to do! I think I’ll be doing BA 65. BA67 also not bad, I’m more familiar with these two than BA 66 (cos was very busy + away during this period).
Okay, back to practice practice practice!!!
c. Okay, I’m struggling to find a 3rd item… so let’s just say I’m thankful that it’s the weekend!! Since I have a rotator cuff injury (actually, it’s not PAINFUL now, just VERY SORE), I’m not going to try out this gym that my friend asked me to. Maybe I’ll take it easy for this Saturday and Sunday… can do my Chinese New Year shopping! 
Yes, this is most certainly something to be gleeful about. Also, I’m very happy that I was early to work the WHOLE OF THIS WEEK! Well, not EARLY, but more of like, within the 10 minutes lateness buffer (forgivable, in other words). How many times did I leave early, or even on time? Zilch!! As always! In fact, I worked til 1030pm on Wednesday. Such a good employee.
Reminder to self for coming Monday (wtf, just said weekend started and now talking about work) : check eBanking logs to see if the testing on enquiry coming in during EOD went through, do the CIB file format for Khamphai (now that input screens and tables completed), solve the 2 problem logs in Campu, resolve export file problem for Outtama, resolve the progressive release problem for Tay, check out MsYap’s problem with the RUR report, start development for eBanking financial transactions . . . omg! Like so many items…. should I go in to work during the weekend instead? Actually, there are other little extras that I would do if I had the time, like helping CEO do some light documentation, and doing the constant yield calculations for Chua, but I am like really devoid of time. Gosh… *weeps*
Last weekend was nice though… met up with Fuzzy and Dull for Fuzz’s birthday celebration. As she said, just a quiet late lunch we had together at TGIF. Actually, I keep mixing up the menus between TGIF and Chillis… but Chillis is definitely much much much better! Love it!
Don’t ask me why my face is so red… I considered buying a margarita, but wound up not… (calorie consumption guilt)… Anyway check it out, Fuzz, Dull and I are so ’1Malaysia’… since we were 14 years old. Sadly, we are ’1Malaysia’ but so many people aren’t… I don’t even know what to say about this country anymore…
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I love watching Tron eat, because he looks like a smalllllll kid. 
Was actually trying to camwhore in the mirror, but then Tron asked me something and I wound up taking this picture.
Something like kung pao chicken. Ok ok only la.
REALLY yummy eggplant with seafood stuffing cooked on an iron plate … =)
Ice mocha with vanilla ice-cream on top! (Instead of whipped cream… probably just as sinful, but I told myself it was a healthier option, lol)
My cajun chicken salad… quite yums. I am trying to lose weight, going to order more salads when I’m out instead of eating so much pasta. (Though pasta drives me wildddd!)
ONE of the items that I bought at Sephora – the Too Faced Romantic Eye palette. To be honest, it’s so pretty that I haven’t used it yet though I’ve been itching to! Must photograph it in its pristine glory before I taint it with my grubby fingers. I’m also interested in the Too Faced Naked Eye palette.. but should I get it if I’m getting the Urban Decay Naked palette? There’s also many other awesome palettes from Urban Decay. The other item I got was a body butter from the Soap & Glory range. I’ll be blogging about it all on my beauty blog. 
Tron was very impressed with the decoration… haha. And we arrived super early… like 6:15pm when the buffet starts at 6pm. If you don’t want to be a lonely diner, come at 7pm. 
Salads and other various starters… I ate a LOT of their salad … it’s refreshing against hot pieces of grilled meat! Plus, the coleslaw is really awesome.
Some grilled seafood… they have prawns, scallops, crabs, fish, some kinda shellfish (don’t know) and squid. Didn’t try the last two.
For meat, they have lamb and beef cutlets, and marinated chicken wings. I prefer the chicken wings — were really succulent and well-marinated in God-knows-what. The beef and lamb a bit hard after bbq-ing.
Pre-cooked food : had carbonara, bamboo clams, some kinda tofu and Hainan chicken. There were lots more, just that I wasn’t keen on it.
Some too-sweet jellies…. I prefer the firmer jellies… cos these ones look like they were disintegrating already.
Ais kacang that was quite nice…. cos I got to put in what I like! (No corn, no peanuts!)
This was actually taken on the eve of the Bersih rally. Left work on the dot at 6pm as I had to meet the pastor, remember? Federal Highway was crawling, and I was jealous of the other side of the road. See how clear it is? 
Ok la, maybe got ONE or TWO cars occasionally.
Erm… ok, not so jealous anymore!
The jam stretched from Seri Setia way back into USJ! Poor people! I wonder what time they got home that day. For me, after the usual slight jams in Sunway and the turn off to Subang Parade, it was relatively pain-in-the-ass free.
Buying pomelo as part of the teambuilding event in Ipoh.
Here’s another picture of us Loaded Gunz.
My new lanyard… no more red color already.
Tron and I eating at Penang Village in Hartamas Shopping Center. That place is quite dead, isn’t it? We actually went there to look for Mr Pieman, but they have been replaced with Bread Story. Bread Story is filthy! Got flies landing on their pastries and they didn’t do anything!
We had otak-otak (quite nice)
Tron had the belacan fried rice (ok)
I had the Penang-style seafood noodle. Dunno what la. It was quite meh.
The match is on Tuesday night!
Tron got two free passes but I think his mom and his sister went. 
Cool number, bro!
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