::Originally posted on Completely Random::
Sorry for the lack of updates, I’ve been pretty much… detached for the past few days. So-called doing some soul-searching. =(
Just the other day, someone told me that I do not do things “seriously”. Ok, so I’m not the only one which kena hentam with his comment (basically everyone was being lambasted), but I got the full blow. Of course, the natural reaction of any human being when they get criticised is to put their defenses up. Naturally, my stating so means that I did the same. I was grumbling and thinking about how pitiful I was, another victim of corporate beauracracy.
But after thinking even more, I got quite scared. Yes, I still maintain that I’m a victim of corporate beauracracy, but is there not more than a slight grain of truth in his words? Although they were said in anger and were flung out randomly, did it not hit home?
Like I mentioned before, my “goal” in life is to have fun in anything and everything that I do. Does that not gel with being serious in anything and everything I do? Different definitions will probably state that it is possible to be both serious and yet fun (most top managers / directors / CEOs/ CIOs / COOs would probably tell themselves that and be far from the truth), but it goes together like oil and water in my book.
Truth is, I probably am not being serious enough in the things I do, and have been getting by on luck. Gotta be more serious… gotta be more serious… gotta put my game face on.
Gotta be more serious at work.
Gotta be more serious with what I do during my free time.
Gotta be more serious in my relationships with other people.
Gotta be more serious in gaining a ninja-like body (haha!).
Gotta add in new new year’s resolutions : SLEEP EARLIER and BE SERIOUS! =(
Erghhh… and the other thing that hit close to home was my mom saying that I’m too ultra-sensitive. Thing is, ya, maybe I’m super defensive and sensitive in thinking what others are up to, but maybe my mom shouldn’t go around answering things in a super lansi kinda manner. To her it’s not lansi, but to me it’s damn kau lansi… e.g:
“Haha, I just got this bracelet. Nice or not?”
“Nice meh?”
“Do you have to be so sarcastic?”
“I was sarcastic meh?”
GRR! And that example just reminds me that I cannot show off my cute accessories to my mom & grandma because they ALWAYS say, “Cheh… it’s not real also.” Like wtf man. Do they think I’m a millionairess or something? How can I go around buying expensive jewelry AND afford to… erm, EAT?
Oh yeah, the other day my mom said that it was unsightly for a girl to have toned biceps. Errr… just because my biceps are bigger than my brother’s one la. Actually, I wish I could achieve arms like Madonna’s… (practically impossible), but slightly toned was good enough for me. Even so my mom & grandma still felt it was horrible, etc etc. Yeesh! I think more horrible would be like two slabs of tofu, with the appearance ala pak cham kai, but that’s just me. Also, I think the models who have the perfect perfect perfect figure evAR are the Sports Illustrated Swimsuit models. WahHhhhhhhh! Damn hot!1!!1 Marisa Miller! Brooklyn Decker! Daniella Sarahyba! Veronica Varekova! Jessica Van Der Steen! By the way, Daniella is being promoted by her agents as a “plus size” model. Does this look plus size to you!?!?!
Sorry for all the so-called” navel-gazing. What are you going to do about it, eh? Hack my blog and delete it? Hwahwahwa. Check out Leceh Leech, for I have managed to archive until April 2006! Go me! =D
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